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8 October 2022 17:46I'm back from a 5 day meditation retreat. Nobody noticed? my goodness
I went to another party and it was fun. I don't understand what makes social events fun or not. I was in a better spot because of all the meditation I did. I have more loving feelings towards my fellow man instead of being just scared. That could be it.
There was this girl I like there. Shes just so nice. I can't stop thinking about her. Every time we see each other once every 3 months, I can't stop thinking about her.
I asked her out but she said no. But I don't want to give up. This same thing happened to me almost 8 months ago with the same girl. But I'm a lot secure in myself now thank god. It doesn't hurt as bad as it did last time. Butttt I did get some great gym motivation from that. I don't really have any rage-generating thoughts anymore for the gym. I could use some now I guess for the long winter.
I went to another party and it was fun. I don't understand what makes social events fun or not. I was in a better spot because of all the meditation I did. I have more loving feelings towards my fellow man instead of being just scared. That could be it.
There was this girl I like there. Shes just so nice. I can't stop thinking about her. Every time we see each other once every 3 months, I can't stop thinking about her.
I asked her out but she said no. But I don't want to give up. This same thing happened to me almost 8 months ago with the same girl. But I'm a lot secure in myself now thank god. It doesn't hurt as bad as it did last time. Butttt I did get some great gym motivation from that. I don't really have any rage-generating thoughts anymore for the gym. I could use some now I guess for the long winter.
