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I am naturally happy I think now. It’s just the daily negative energy I get from work, parents fighting, not having that much fun during the week that slowly creeps up on me everyday.

I think I can fix it by not spending that much time at home and making a plan or 2 on the weekday and doing some fun stuff on the weekend.

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Ba passed away yesterday. I’m going to Dallas with parth now. I think it’s good that now she’s definitely in a better place. It was hard to see her health deteriorate. She couldn’t even walk and probably had a hard time taking care of herself. And probably in a lot of pain. So at least she doesn’t have to worry about that anymore. But I feel a bit guilty because I told myself I would call her but haven’t for a while.

I was gonna go back home for my birthday so I could spend it with ba.

I’m sad she won’t be able to see Ayu’s and Jigar’s kid. But at least she saw a lot of the grandchildren get into relationships and saw her 2 great grandchildren.

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It’s 2 weeks later. I feel a bit guilty that I don’t miss her more. But I will commit to my feelings and being myself.