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[rooooooshi]

Still depressed a bit but a bit better. I think messing up my schedule of exercising and the cold weather hurt. << as I typed that last sentence I thought I shouldn’t try to pick apart the small things that make me feel a certain way. It’s usually not true. << writing that sentence I thought then I would never lift weights, eat more, meditate if that didn’t help.

I can’t wait to make progress again. My main worry right now is that I’m not good enough. I’m not responsible or dependable enough to attract people. I was going to work on it when I got back